Wednesday, June 29, 2016

The Calm Before The Storm

It's so like me to pick the MOST DRAMATIC TITLE for this post (well, every post, really). Because feelings. We are quickly nearing our move date to Jack's one level and along with all that excited/happy/joy is the realization that we are ending an era. One that saw us through our early days in Helena, through Jack's birth and everything that's happened since. These walls have been our protection. They sheltered us in every sense of the word. When being at home was doctor ordered, it was our sanctuary where we could watch Jack get stronger and stronger. We've taken a thousand walks around our loop. The pine tree smell is in our blood. If you can't tell by now, I just adore our little home in the woods and appreciate everything it has been for us. Bittersweet feelings for sure.

But then we walk through our new home and know - this is the best move for Jack. This is looking more and more like our forever home. When I told you about Jack's one level, I explained our vision and that it would be built so he has access to everything. I won't have to worry about him falling down the stairs. This is a very real fear of ours that will go away as soon as we're there. He can come and go as he pleases. Our back's will get a nice break! When I wrote that first post telling you about the land we purchased, this was all in the dream stage. But to see it come together has been exhilarating. It's will make a huge, tangible difference in our lives.

Right now life is a crazy, fast-paced mix of moving boxes, trips to Lowes and Home Depot and a steady stream of builders, contractors, and the like. Building a house has been a crash course in "we don't know what we're doing!" and "we're having the best time ever!" It really has been so much fun. It's super exciting right now because we can see all the finishes of the house, so we are finally seeing how all our choices turned out. It's also scary because those are our choices, they're already in, and hopefully they don't look like a 7 year old put them together (please, dear baby Jesus).

In the midst of all this, we decided to take a breather and head to the family cabin. We needed some calm. No internet. No cellphones. Just the rumbling river to listen to. Oh, and Jack's Elmo's World collection. (Side note: Jack still loves Elmo. He didn't grow out of it. This makes us wonder if Jack will be 38 and still watching Elmo. Please start fasting and praying.)

Ah the cabin. The place where I read all the books and eat all the s'mores. Is there anything better in life? No need to answer my rhetorical question, because no.

First, there's something magical about sleeping at the cabin. All that fresh air and we had a little sleeping angel on our hands.

Carver Jon was in full swing. He has the busiest second job, I tell ya.

Don't feel too bad about his blistered hands, he got in some good reading time, too.

Jack was just chill. I love that he feels so comfy at the cabin.

I was really into this book. I know I'm late to the game. Quiet... wow, life changer.

(I was out with some close friends last week, lamenting how I wasn't seeing them enough. I'm one of those people who needs to keep friendships, conversation, etc. highly connected and deep. They said read this book! and thanks to the 2-day shipping gods, was able to dive in right away. It explains so much. As I came into my thirties, I was realizing that I had some introverted tendencies. I was cherishing alone time to recharge. I was enjoying my solitary and cerebral work as a PhD student. I was appreciating and longing for deeper friendships with a tighter-nit group of people. No fluff for me, please. Then I took a Meyers-Briggs personality test and yep, INFJ (I for introvert). I was still confused, though, because I don't have all of the introverted aspects one may first expect. I don't fear public speaking and I can small talk with the best of them. I enjoy blogging and sharing about my life through social media. I have times where excitement, adventure and loud are my jam. I'd say I'm slightly just over the introverted scale and Quiet explains so much about introversion, how introverts operate, and the power they have. Highly recommend, ya'll.)

Back to the cabin. Off course, lots of Jack cuddles.

I also wanted to do the annual photo on the cabin steps. This kid.

And now we're back to reality. Packing boxes and running around tying up loose ends. We pray Jack loves his new surroundings. Change is not easy for him and if you think of it, say a little prayer that he feels at ease with his new space and routine. Jack's one level is our next stop!

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Amber said...

I love that you're able to do this for Jack. Good luck with the move!

Olivia Sanders said...

I miss your posts Jessi!! Hopefully things are all okay with you guys and your beautiful new home

Jessi said...

Ah thanks, Olivia! I'm planning a blog post for next week to show everyone our new digs! I've really missed blogging. Thanks for checking in <3