Trauma does things to a person, I'm told. Things like PTSD. I'm sure fear is the largest part of this.
The only thing I know is that I don't want my life ruled by fear. It is no way to live. Sure, that's an easy thing to say...but in practice?
Fear gets in the way. Fear is the annoying emotion always hanging out with you.
Of course the NICU made me more fearful. How could it not?