Was anyone else watching?
That one hit way too close to home. For a show that I usually watch because I love period dramas and the witty writing, it suddenly took a very real-life turn.
And here's the part where I'm going to be totally honest with you all. I had to leave the room. The emotion was just too real, too raw. I got up. Went to another room. I asked Jon "is it over? is she dead yet"? I could see it unfolding during the episode and I knew.
During Jack's four months in the hospital (after his birth, due to my Pre-Eclampsia), there were two other severe cases of this mystery disorder. One mother was left with significant brain damage. Her baby was right next to Jack's isolette. I watched her and her family struggle with their new reality. Another mother died. I will never forget the grieving father leaving the hospital the day after, alone with his new baby.
It's still too real.
And the sad thing? A TV show that takes place 100 years ago showed a very real scenario that is still happening in 2013. There have been no significant advances in the treatment towards Pre-Eclampsia in those 100 years. No known indicator. No known cure.
I don't spend much time thinking about my fate. About the reason why I did not die. But I'm stuck with the realization that Jack had to be born at 23 weeks because of something that was happening to me. Something that came upon me so very quick that we barely made it in time.
So last night? That was a smack in the face coming from a place that I least expected.