Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Day 11

Day 11: A picture of something you hate

Baby Jack gives a yawn in his hospital bed.
He is about 4 months old or zero months adjusted in this picture.
It's really sad that I have so many hospital pictures to choose from.

We've spent our fair share of days in those cold, sterile walls of a hospital. Jack's longest tenure was 119 days and the verdict is in: the hospital sucks, plain and simple. I hate the hospital. It is a very scary place for our family. I always say that the hospital is about the worst place to be and every time we leave through the doors, I thank God we are out.

But I need a positive spin on this post today because really, we have so much to be grateful for. Here is what I've been thinking about and what I will take away - I'm almost certain that many in Jack's shoes never, ever get to leave the hospital. Ever.

I was just reading on a support group page that after a year of living in the NICU, a preemie boy is not going to survive and they are making the difficult decision about life support. Can you imagine? My heart aches for that family. I also know that many countries choose not to resuscitate before 24 weeks gestation (Jack was born at 23 weeks, 2 days) or have the means to. Jack wouldn't have made it an hour outside of my womb, much less the hospital walls.

Jack has gotten top-notch care since his birth and it isn't cheap. He is our million dollar baby, and that number keeps rising. Thankfully, we have good health insurance and we never have to wait to see a doctor. Another reason to be grateful. We have a team of about ten specialists that follow Jack's health and for that too, we are grateful. The hospital can actually be a warm place. I have many good memories to accompany the bad of Jack's hospital stays - giving Jack his first bath, celebrating moving off the vent, marveling and celebrating as he beat the odds, Jack breastfeeding, close relationships with Jack's nurses, and finally being cleared for discharge (it never gets old!). Yes the hospital sucks, but without it, Jack wouldn't be alive.
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1 comment:

Julie said...

Way to put a positive spin on it Jessi. You are absolutely right about everything you said.